Poems By David Cappella [Who Is Among Poets & Writers March 10 At Fiddleheads]

David Cappella lives in the town of Manchester, CT. He is an Associate Professor of English at Central Connecticut State University. He has co-authored two books on the teaching of poetry with Baron Wormser: Teaching the Art of Poetry: The Moves (Lawrence Erlbaum Associates, 2000) and A Surge of Language: Teaching Poetry Day to Day (Heinemann, 2004). He is the winner of the 2004 Bright Hill Press Poetry Chapbook Competition, of which the first poem was nominated for a Pushcart Prize. He has published poems in The Connecticut Review, The Bryant Literary Review, Diner and other journals.

Cappella is one of several poets and writers who will be appearing Saturday, March 10, at Fiddleheads Natural Supermarket in Litchfield. Other poets and writers on the bill include Jim Scrimgeour, Tom Hazuka, Ravi Shankar and Elizabeth Thomas. Opening for the poets and writers will be a jazz combo made up of local teenagers.

Fiddleheads Market

Love like a stone

I have sunk to the bottom of my heart.
Like a stone picked up from an old gravel road,
tossed into a fast-flowing stream,
mired in river bottom mud.

The current that washes over me, perhaps
forever, washes me in regret.
I love a woman who does not love me.

You pick up a stone, sun-warm, dry
to the touch, from the gravel road.
You fling it into the rushing stream.

Changed forever, it lies below
the surface, irrevocably altered, but a stone
still, granite, intact, invisible as a soul.
I changed a stone the way love changed me.


The Walnut

Consider the walnut
its crenellation, its meat
like a miniature human brain
that you chew; a nut
that imitates a cerebellum.

Consider the flesh of the brain
which you will never see
except as splotches of color
on a CAT scan prior to diagnosis
of cancer, if you are diagnosed
with brain cancer, or are, instead,
told that your headaches,
stress related, can be controlled.

Consider how the flesh of the brain
responds to the positive news
that today you have not been told
that you will surely die,
though some people, a lucky few,
do, in fact, survive brain cancer
but not the daughter of a colleague
who withered away after months,
eighteen to be exact, of various treatments
and you had coffee with him,
her father, and watched him cry
every Friday between sips
over the fact that he would outlive
his darling, his beautiful darling,
only twenty-eight, and a nurse,
if you can believe so much in Fate.

Consider the softness of the brain exposed
how it was the spikes driven
into her head, the ones that shoot
streams of radioactive chemicals
to kill the tumor and the person, too.
He could not stop visualizing
the spikes, like a weird punk hairdo,
in his own brain. A type of crying, too.

Consider the walnut cracked open
two halves, broken, bicameral,
like consciousness is broken
when we cry, when we think
and feel simultaneously, when
we thank something called God
(whose brain we cannot envision)
that we are not dead, though
we can watch someone wish
he could die, could give his life
in place of his daughter's.

Consider the taste of the walnut
slightly bitter, not as bitter
as the father's view of life
at this moment, crying and
alone with Fate. The walnut
flesh softly breaks in your mouth,
the earthy tang deepens
as you chew the meat;
it sweetens slowly, you swallow,
instinctively reach for a glass
of Montepulciano to complement
the subtle, nutty taste, a combination
that soothes your brain, which,
had it been cracked open
and closely inspected,
would not look like meat
of a walnut at all, but would
look like a hardened mass of gray,
crenellated clay folds, inedible,
except to other animals, maybe,
though gourmands eat the brains
of certain ruminants, would taste
like nothing, which no doubt is
how the coffee tastes to the father
whose quiet tears have not stopped
and who stares straight at you
to ask the unanswerable, "Why?"